We've all been there. Met someone who just made your knees weak. You're in huge lust over them. You may even place them on a pedestal, think to yourself, "They're too good for me" for whatever reason.
I'm a HUGE offender of this. I ALWAYS want someone I can't have. I think about them, daydream a bit. I think in a huge way, it's a way I punish MYSELF (Who said a sadist isn't also a masochist in ways?) It hurts me when they don't want me back. It makes me feel like absolute crap. Waiting on that text? Haha. Stop checking your phone, it's never gonna happen.
But I kinda set myself up for it. I meet people that I know are emotionally unavailable, don't want a relationship, don't like my body type, or whatever. Then when I don't get the result I want (them wanting me back) I get sad. I say, "This always happens to me, why doesn't anyone like me? how can I get him/her to want me?"
Haha. People DO want me, just not that one person I'm craving. You can't make anyone want you. You can't change them and what they want. I know this, yet I do it anyway. Talk about self-sabotage.
It's semi destructive because it does hurt me emotionally and make me try hard to be good enough for them, like overexercising, starving, etc. I guess maybe I use my "feelings" for these people as a reason to hurt myself.
Anyway....just had to write that. Im just feeling crappy over someone not wanting me. I know this always happens. Anyone else?