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We've all been there. Met someone who just made your knees weak. You're in huge lust over them. You may even place them on a pedestal, think to yourself, "They're too good for me" for whatever reason.

I'm a HUGE offender of this. I ALWAYS want someone I can't have. I think about them, daydream a bit. I think in a huge way, it's a way I punish MYSELF (Who said a sadist isn't also a masochist in ways?) It hurts me when they don't want me back. It makes me feel like absolute crap. Waiting on that text? Haha. Stop checking your phone, it's never gonna happen.

But I kinda set myself up for it. I meet people that I know are emotionally unavailable, don't want a relationship, don't like my body type, or whatever. Then when I don't get the result I want (them wanting me back) I get sad. I say, "This always happens to me, why doesn't anyone like me? how can I get him/her to want me?"

Haha. People DO want me, just not that one person I'm craving. You can't make anyone want you. You can't change them and what they want. I know this, yet I do it anyway. Talk about self-sabotage.

It's semi destructive because it does hurt me emotionally and make me try hard to be good enough for them, like overexercising, starving, etc. I guess maybe I use my "feelings" for these people as a reason to hurt myself.

Anyway....just had to write that. Im just feeling crappy over someone not wanting me. I know this always happens. Anyone else?


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Rachel, BAE!
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States
Im 25 and I am a registered nurse. Im single. I identify as queer. I have two cats...another one just passed away on Feb 28th, 2013. Im also very artistically inclined and love multiple forms of it. I do mostly pen work, but sometimes i use markers, crayons, charcoal...watercolor..whatever seems to fit. I also write poetry, which are usually in a format I can sing them. I love singing too. I love photography.

**I also do paid commissions, depending on style/complexity. I focus mainly on anime style people and am willing to draw just about anything, use any song lyrics etc- message for details :)**

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meatloaf125 Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Love your photos. Gonna hit the watch button. Pretty awesome page pretty awesome face :happybounce: I think I've fainted. 
itgbae Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank you so much :D
meatloaf125 Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Your most welcome :D
Darkgon01 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013
Just to warn you, your newest watcher :iconalerkina2: is a notorious art thief. For more info read here [link] , look here [link] , and read here, [link] . You'll probably want to warn your watchers and friends as he'll go after them next. P.S. He'll probably comment saying to ignore me then give you a llama, ignore any attempts he makes to get on your good side as it's all a ruse.
alerkina2 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Hi there...I'M A FAN OF DDR
Artful-Dodgerette Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fave, girl! I hope you have a wonderful Valentines Day! :) :)
itgbae Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank you!
paulalisamarie Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist
Thanks for the Fave! :)
itgbae Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
youre welcome ^.^
sasunaruchan Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the :+fav: :iconinloveplz:
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