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Pigs officially flew the other day when I heard from a ghost of the past. A ghost that always lingered in the back of my mind somewhere, reminding me of what love feels like; what pain feels like. A ghost that was hidden from my view, though never too far from my mind. Then, the ghost reappeared.
I felt like this would happen someday. Someday- some far day. But it was the other day. I felt confused- I had been thinking a lot more about said ghost in the last week or so, and deleted the phone number so Id never be able to reach out.

So, I decided I wasnt angry, and at least wanted to hear things out. Ghost wanted to be friends. I thought maybe it was possible but wanted to feel out how we talked first.

So this now tangible ghost told me about life; new girlfriend, new job, new stuff. I already knew about the girlfriend; I just kept my mouth shut and pretended I didnt know. I tried to have a decent conversation.

But after our conversation ended...I realized that though this year has been AWFUL, and Ive done a lot of things I regret due to what happened with said "ghost", I do not want to revert. Too much has happened. Ive finally learned to stand on my own.

That ghost will always float around in the background. As I watch their love be stronger, better than ours; I get renewed hope that maybe, just maybe, I can find it too. I always thought nothing was stronger than us; but apparently, it can be.

So, thank you for coming out of the shadows; so I can know Ive been forgiven. You did like me as a friend. that was all real. Thank you for showing me that I dont need you as much as I thought I did. Thank you for the years; the tears; you've made me who I am now. And one day Ill get things right in my life.

Until then....goodbye Ghost. 
  • Mood: Torment
  • Listening to: Jar of hearts- Glee version
your taste is my attention by itgbae
your taste is my attention
Better that you havent seen me, i dont belong, in anything you dream. in anything we dream..
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  • Listening to: Adele- Someone Like you
The text message by itgbae
The text message
always waiting on that text? Guess they're not as into you as you are.....sucks.
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Pigs officially flew the other day when I heard from a ghost of the past. A ghost that always lingered in the back of my mind somewhere, reminding me of what love feels like; what pain feels like. A ghost that was hidden from my view, though never too far from my mind. Then, the ghost reappeared.
I felt like this would happen someday. Someday- some far day. But it was the other day. I felt confused- I had been thinking a lot more about said ghost in the last week or so, and deleted the phone number so Id never be able to reach out.

So, I decided I wasnt angry, and at least wanted to hear things out. Ghost wanted to be friends. I thought maybe it was possible but wanted to feel out how we talked first.

So this now tangible ghost told me about life; new girlfriend, new job, new stuff. I already knew about the girlfriend; I just kept my mouth shut and pretended I didnt know. I tried to have a decent conversation.

But after our conversation ended...I realized that though this year has been AWFUL, and Ive done a lot of things I regret due to what happened with said "ghost", I do not want to revert. Too much has happened. Ive finally learned to stand on my own.

That ghost will always float around in the background. As I watch their love be stronger, better than ours; I get renewed hope that maybe, just maybe, I can find it too. I always thought nothing was stronger than us; but apparently, it can be.

So, thank you for coming out of the shadows; so I can know Ive been forgiven. You did like me as a friend. that was all real. Thank you for showing me that I dont need you as much as I thought I did. Thank you for the years; the tears; you've made me who I am now. And one day Ill get things right in my life.

Until then....goodbye Ghost. 
  • Mood: Torment
  • Listening to: Jar of hearts- Glee version

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Rachel, BAE!
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States
Im 25 and I am a registered nurse. Im single. I identify as queer. I have three cats...another one just passed away on Feb 28th, 2013. Im also very artistically inclined and love multiple forms of it. I do mostly pen work, but sometimes i use markers, crayons, charcoal...watercolor..whatever seems to fit. I also write poetry, which are usually in a format I can sing them. I love singing too. I love photography.


**I also do paid commissions, depending on style/complexity. I focus mainly on anime style people and am willing to draw just about anything, use any song lyrics etc- message for details :)**
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meatloaf125 Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Love your photos. Gonna hit the watch button. Pretty awesome page pretty awesome face :happybounce: I think I've fainted. 
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itgbae Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank you so much :D
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meatloaf125 Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Your most welcome :D
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Darkgon01 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013
Just to warn you, your newest watcher :iconalerkina2: is a notorious art thief. For more info read here [link] , look here [link] , and read here, [link] . You'll probably want to warn your watchers and friends as he'll go after them next. P.S. He'll probably comment saying to ignore me then give you a llama, ignore any attempts he makes to get on your good side as it's all a ruse.
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alerkina2 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Hi there...I'M A FAN OF DDR
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Artful-Dodgerette Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fave, girl! I hope you have a wonderful Valentines Day! :) :)
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itgbae Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank you!
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paulalisamarie Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist
Thanks for the Fave! :)
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itgbae Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
youre welcome ^.^
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sasunaruchan Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the :+fav: :iconinloveplz:
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